I’m now on a mission with this blog. A mission to share what I am passionate about, and to help people that I haven’t helped yet.
For those that don’t know me too well, I am a pretty calm and serious person. There have been crazy moments in my past, but the people I’ve met recently wouldn’t have guessed that. If you want to laugh all of the time, act like life is a bowl of cherries, or slide down rainbows……wrong blog to be reading, sorry! I’m struggling at the moment with the post I wrote back on January 20th, sharing the two ministries I am preparing to be a part of. One is the BibleTech conference I am speaking at and the other is the Digital Disciples local gathering I am starting (small group of creatives and techies).
What’s nagging at me is that there is this huge gap in my mind as I look at both of these ministries. When I picture (and hear about) people attending a conference, I am haunted by the feelings kids get on Saturday mornings when they are leaving from a week of highs with friends at a camp. You’ve probably experienced it. You’re exhausted as you are leaving. The worse part? You don’t even know where to go now that you are headed back to a life of normality and loneliness. And there’s a good chance it will be like that for more than a few days. I’ve been to a few conferences, and I can’t say that one has really changed my life or impacted me tremendously. Giving me something that I can’t wait to give to someone else. Sure, I’ve “learned” and met new people. But where does it go from here? And I’m going to go speak at one of these conferences?!?!?
The other, as I posted earlier, is something I am anticipating greatly. It’s exactly what I believe we all should be doing, but we’re not. Spending time with other people, pouring into their lives on a continual basis, sharing and learning from each other while not holding tightly to the wisdom of this world. You’ve probably been where I am right now. You realize that you could change the world, but you’re not sure if you could handle the task. There are many other people as, if not more, talented than you in that area, but you hold back from interacting with them. You like it just where you are, and would prefer not to REALLY get “social”.
This is where my brain is at the moment. Excited about going to the conference, but wanting more to change just one life there than be that hyper-social-freak-show that wants to meet everyone and make sure they have his web address when they leave. Fewer followers to me is better, if it results in deeper relationships. More like making a new lifelong friend than a pen-pal you write to once or twice. Or your 1,600th friend on Facebook that doesn’t even care who you are! One thing I do know. I am not the only one that thinks thoughts like these. I’d be thrilled to hear a few that have raced through your mind! HELP!